I don't plan to use anyone's real names when writing this. Some people will figure in prominently but I will do all I can to keep them anonymous. I have no desire to hurt people or reveal things that shouldn't be revealed, even if I dislike them or it is harmless. All I say will be real. However I will not name names. The only exception I will make is for my own if I ever choose to.

I'm postponing the beginning of my story for a while. I have a good reason for it, which I'll tell when I pick it back up again.

Life has changed greatly for me. For the past few years I felt like I was doing the same things and going to the same places with the same people. Now I feel like I'm living outside of everyone else. I have no schedule and, other than a few tasks I need to get done every day, nothing that I don't enjoy doing. Life is good and things are really starting to pick up. My whole outlook has changed and I'm much happier. I can feel all the pointless bullshit I had been concerning myself with fading away and I'm getting my life back in order the way I want. I don't feel like I'm doing things because I have to, but because I want to.

I met a fantastic woman, C, who is just what I needed. She is on a similar schedule and, strangely, going through very similar things I am. She tells me about the problems she's having and I remember feeling just as she did the week before. Most of the past few days have been spent together and she's shown me around her neighborhood and parts of Evanston, a town I've never been to before.

She's been very understanding about all I've been through lately and doesn't seem upset when I really go on about everything and really open up. She's much younger than I am, yet seems to understand and is really compassionate, which is refreshing. There have been times her problems have been too much for her and I'm honored to be the one she came to. I understand what she's going through and, since I have a weird talent of reading people's feelings and understanding their motives, we've discussed her and her boyfriend and why things are turning out the way they are.

She's beautiful, she's smart, she's sweet, funny and she's got a boyfriend. We haven't done anything untoward or dishonest as I've already discussed cheating. She has no desire to so we're just there for each other now.

Since she is slightly behind me with her situation, I understand how it is when it's over but you're still committed more out of a feeling of honor than consideration for the other person. Even if the that person has already broken it off you don't jump into it with someone else just because you can.

This is not at all interesting. I'm not going to turn this into a discussion about feelings and relationships. Life is much more interesting than that.








The Great Mojo Nixon. We miss you.