I made a promise to take A out without thinking. Come Friday we had a date scheduled and I took her to a sushi bar, then a movie (Pan's Labyrinth- very good), the she spent the night with me. I'm not sure if it was such a good idea. I gave up on her several times last week and don't really want to spend any time with her but I thought it would be good to get on some positive ground no matter what happens.
She had a great time as did I but now, with her gone, I wish I didn't. Weeks ago I told her I didn't want to commit to her, I shouldn't have a girlfriend, which is mostly true. I'd like one, especially now (more on that later), but there are a lot of things that wouldn't work with her and I. Sometimes we get along great though and I do enjoy being with her, it just doesn't feel right.

I don't want this to turn into a site where I go over the highs and lows of dating, though I'm aware it's become that. I expect A to screw up or do something within the next two weeks that will give me reason to stop seeing her.

Wednesday she went to practice and I went to an anti-Valentine's Day party an old friend invited me to. Strange that I should have an "old friend" considering I've only been here for six and a half months but that's what she is. I see her once ever two or three months. We both have very different lives.
She works in tv production and may be working on a movie soon. If she does she offered me a part as an extra.
The party was fun too, just what I needed.

Now I don't feel so hot. I feel like I have a slight flu though it's already getting better. I very rarely get sick and when I do it doesn't last long. I should be better tomorrow. I just need a good, long sleep.