A and I fought all weekend. From what I've learned this weekend I know we won't be together indefinitely. Sometimes I wonder why we're together now. We're very different and fought for several different reasons, none important enough to go into right now.

The high point of the weekend was seeing Blowfly, a very strange show. Three rap acts opened up for them, each one better than the one before it until Blowfly comes out in his mask, cape and a costume resembling pajamas covered in cheap craft store glitter. Each song was about sex- Should I Fuck That Big Fat Ho sung to the Clash tune, Fuck Your Boss and his new single R. Kelly in Cambodia. He singled audience members out to sing the song about them and while I was R. Kelly, he had a massive woman come out to the front of the stage to sing Should I Fuck This Big Fat Ho. Much of the audience looked stunned, as if the woman would burst out into tears at any moment and at one point I thought she might.

While I was looking over the merch he had been talking to A and pointed at her and told me I'd have to ask his boss when I asked for his photo. When I told him I was her boss he got pissed; "Bitch, you two-timing me?!"

We went home happy and made up for the night, went to a flea market the next day and spent the rest of the afternoon pissed off at each other, our irritation bubbling under the surface. I know I'm to blame for much of it though she's not without fault either. Both of us see things differently and when we're completely honest with each other, as we are, it tends to get on the other's nerves. It's a political thing.

I found an article I wrote years ago posted on someone's webpage. It's not a very well known page and I doubt it's even maintained anymore, but seeing what I wrote printed out word for word without my permission only added to my already frustrated mood. I contacted the server and only received a processed set on instructions I could follow to get it legally taken off. I had to prove it's mine by sending in clarification I don't have and contact their lawyer. I have it on my hard drive on an undated file as I never thought it would be something I would have to worry about being stolen. It was a quick piece I wrote off as a joke. This is why I rarely let anyone see what I write. I've got to be more careful when sending out anything.