I feel like I've been floating for the past week. Last Sunday I didn't feel tired at all so I stayed up all night. Come Monday I thought sleep would hit me in the middle of the day but it didn't. I stayed up very late that day. I know I slept that night because I had an interview on Tuesday but I wasn't in bed for very long. I hit the interview, which went well and didn't feel tired at all. That evening C wanted to get together. I predicted the great sleep would come that night yet I invited her over. She caught me sleeping and got upset that I ignored her. We argued though we did sleep for a couple hours. The next day I went to her place were I slept on the couch. I thought I fixed my sleep problem last night when I got a nice long sleep but I've spent the entire day in a haze. Not sure why, though it may be my diet.

I didn't write this to give you an iternary of my week, I want to talk about something that I may not be able to discuss fully while in this blurry state.

Everyone has stories of September 11th, 2001, how it affected them, how they felt and about the people they knew involved. I'm going to save mine for the five year anniversary but I will say it affected me deeply at the time it happened. Right now I'm thinking of everything that has changed because of it. Not the obvious extra (and mostly surface) security at airports, I'm talking about how this country has become so charge politically since.
I don't want to make this into a political blog, there are far too many of those, but I will lapse at times and discuss my political views.
One of the bits I wrote for my act was about how happy I was to see Bush elected the first time around. He was a buffoon and, since I didn't like Gore either, I thought at least he could provide entertainment. After Sept. 11th he turned into a whole other animal and divided the country the likes of which it hasn't seen since the Civil War. People have taken sides and while those sides may include your hands around your opponent's throat, at least more people are thinking.
In the nineties there was too much apathy. People didn't even consider their own country, history and surely didn't take any interest in politics. That is one of the main reasons Bush gained so much support initially. Ignorance is a fan base you can be proud of.
However, for all the problems now, at least more people are thinking. Where politics was once a quiet brook you passed every day but never considered, it has now become a broken levee that swells over us all*.
We're divided but at least we're active. Where there was once indifference and apathy there is now anger and hatred. However misguided, there is a renewed activism in the country. I wasn't alive during the hippie years (thank god) but I can imagine it wasn't that much different from today. People are actually starting to give a shit and hopefully, once the inevitable tide has turned, they will continue to do so long after the current problems are out of office. That is the one and only good thing about this administration, it is waking people up and forcing them to take action. I think enough people have woken from their slumber to make the remaining time Bush is in office very difficult for him and his agenda. False patriotism and blind devotion is quickly waning and is being replaced by clear thinking. We are becoming wiser to propaganda and lies. Each time they are used gives us more reason to think for ourselves. Thankfully more and more are finally seeing things as we are.
Politics in this country and the millions who put so little thought into it have changed. It's just too bad it took so much to get people off their ass.



*Too much, you think?